when i was 3 or 4 i really loved cows

so when i went to the canberra show, i ran up behind one to pet the back of its leg

it responded by kicking me really hard in the chest, and i flew back a couple of feet, landing on my ass

i sat there for a few seconds in shock, tearing up

then got back up and ran over to pet its leg again

i feel like that was a precursor for most of my interactions with my friends

i just don’t understand how i’m meant to change

i’ve been self-harming since i was 8 years old and the longest i’ve gone without doing it is a little under 2 years

i guess i’m on the right track because i’m going to uni and i have a job and i have a boyfriend and i’m not a total recluse 

at least i’m ACTING normal

fuck fuck fuck i just want to be functional

it’s so hard to get out of the habit of, i dunno

being overly emotional and fragile

it’s a serious miracle that i’m at the state i’m at now

i went from frequently going up to a week without eating (and generally purging after that), flaying, cutting, burning and bruising myself every day, popping excessive amounts of pills on a whim and attempting suicide on numerous occasions to where i am now

but GOD i still don’t feel okay

i want to be calm and i wish i wasn’t hurt so easily

i’ve stopped hurting myself so much but i still want to just as badly

simple offhanded comments from friends can knock me into a several hour rut of lying around feeling awful and disgusting (in fact, that’s pretty much summed up the past few days)

but i can’t open up about that because i could end up losing all my friends again

i want to be normal

please let me become normal

ibleedlsd:

ennvui:

moldykins:

please don’t tease carnivorous plants like this!!!! it takes enormous amounts of their energy to dissolve the insects that they need to survive and it takes days to process them!!! when you do this you’re wasting all of their energy and pretty much starving them!!!!!

it’s a fuckin’ plant jesus christ

^Plants give us oxygen. Without any we would just breathe our CO2 and die. Have some consideration to nature, ass.

omfg when i glanced at it the first time i didn’t think it was a finger

ibleedlsd:

ennvui:

moldykins:

please don’t tease carnivorous plants like this!!!! it takes enormous amounts of their energy to dissolve the insects that they need to survive and it takes days to process them!!! when you do this you’re wasting all of their energy and pretty much starving them!!!!!

it’s a fuckin’ plant jesus christ

^Plants give us oxygen. Without any we would just breathe our CO2 and die. Have some consideration to nature, ass.

omfg when i glanced at it the first time i didn’t think it was a finger

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fergiedellorusso:

earlier today i was in a good mood so i decided to wear a cute dress to my classes. while i was taking the 6 MINUTE walk from my house to take the bus to campus, guys in cars harassed me while driving by twice. the first one was this creepy middle aged man who lowered his window and said something like “hey sexy, you need a ride?” and made kissy faces at me and the second one was a group of young dudes who yelled out “show us your tits!!!” those things alone usually piss me off enough but i live on a busy street and it happens extremely often, my female friends who live on the same street have told me the same thing

but today, there was a woman walking down the same street with her two children. after the drive by harassments happened, she came up to me and said “you know, there are people with children who live on this street” and at first i was really happy thinking she was going to sympathize with me but then she followed with “maybe you shouldn’t be dressing like that around here” and it literally made me cry. it ruined my whole day. i was wearing a maxi dress for fuck’s sake that was KINDA low cut. i mean of course it would be unprecedented had i been wearing the skimpiest outfit ever but goddamnit i hate people so much. you’re really not going to be mad at the fucking nasty ass men who think it’s okay to sexually harass students on the street, ESPECIALLY in the presence of children? i hate the world

WHAT A FUCKING AWFUL PERSON

rhythmew:

carry-on-my-wayward-butt:

holding-the-rope:

shadowpassion:

restlesslyaspiring:

pearlsandink:

Men’s Rights Activists.

OH MY GOD THIS IS A PERFECT REPRESENTATION

I will never stop my assault on tumblr and feminism

You will never silence the voice of men, never.

You can not gain equality unless you give it.

Ps? Getting kicked in the testicles is scientifically more painful than giving birth. So you can fuck yourselves.

I will never give up until every tumblr feminist is gone, withering away in the dirt. The egalitarian master race sends their regards.

Feminism is outdated.

Guys look fresh men tears

"scientifically more painful" when science can lay down a universal standard of pain tolerance i’ll delete my blog and join mma fighting lmfao

did he really cry over a post
about friends
when men’s rights activist are a joke
and the fact that
men can’t give birth
oh my fucking god

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uncannyvalleyofthedolls:

Harry Potter vs Voldemort reenacted by Japanese schoolgirls.

uncannyvalleyofthedolls:

Harry Potter vs Voldemort reenacted by Japanese schoolgirls.

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